Blog “Om Work”

LET IT GO, LET IT GO, LET IT GO

Let it go, Let it go, Let it go!  If you are thinking that sounds a lot like Elsa, you may be right. I have been thinking a lot about what it means to let go, and how to do exactly that.  I get the feeling it isn’t as easy as it sounds.

You may have heard the saying, Life is 10% events and 90% how you react to them.  Is this part of the letting go process?  So, if an emotion about a particular event keeps getting me stressed or upset I need to change my reaction?  You may have a thought about that particular event but it may also bring out strong feelings.  Whether it be anger, sadness or being elated, I always thought that you couldn't  control or change and emotion or feeling but maybe I am wrong.

While waiting in the Denver airport for my flight, I pulled out my most recent Yoga Journal and flipped though to an article called Calm Within, by Frank Jude Boccio.   To my surprise, the writer was talking about this very thing,  Letting go!  What stuck me was a passage that went like this... “When we open to the truth that there is actually very little we can control other than our own reactions to circumstances, we learn to let go”.  For some reason I never made this connection.

Calm Within by Frank Jude Boccio. “When we open to the truth that there is actually very little we can control other than our own reactions to circumstances, we learn to let go”

What I discovered is not to change the emotion but feel it and surrender to the fact that you don't have control.  Life happens and there is no stoping it.  Stay present and try to find the silver lining in what ever the situation may be.

Here are a few methods to help along the way

    1. Write/Journal - Putting you thoughts and feeling down on paper can be therapeutic and healing.
    2. Meditate - Meditation can heal the soul, there are many meditation resources on the internet that can walk you through a meditation or you can simply find your favorite to read out loud to your self.
    3. Mantra - Repeating a single mantra over and over is another great method for acceptance or letting go.  Mantras are said to leave a healing effect from the vibration it creates.  Typically they are said (out loud or to ones self) 108 times, which is the amount of beads in a mala.

Here are a few of my favorite mantras:

  1. Om Shanti Shanti Shanti - (Ohm shanti hee shanti hee shanti hee) which translates to Peace Peace Peace.
  2. Om Mani Padme Hum - (Ohm mah nee pahd may huum) which is said to invoke compassion

Another option, and one of my favorite is a simple letting go ritual.  What you will need is a white candle and a conch shell, fire place or an other safe place for flame.  Light the candle and write on a small piece of paper whatever it is you want to let go of.  Sit and contemplate on what it is you want to let go of and visualize it diapering.  Take a few deep breaths and connect with your present.  You can then repeat any mantra of your choice or simply say "I release, I let go".  Light the paper with the candle and repeat mantra.  Place the burning paper in your fire safe place and repeat mantra as the paper burns.  When finished, take few deep breaths, say your peace and your goodbye.

I continue to learn to let go.  I am a work in progress and that is how I like it!

This is my Journey!

GROUNDED

Hi, my name is Nena, I am a yoga teacher and so much more. I have been practicing yoga since 2000 and in 2009 I earned my 250-hour yoga teacher’s certification. I taught yoga for 7 years while working for my husband’s sign shop. In 2014 I decided to switch careers (day job) and pursued becoming a flight attendant. I landed a job (no pun intended) with a regional airline and went straight off to flight training. Unfortunately teaching yoga no longer fit into my schedule. A few months into my job I had a car accident, which started the stress train rolling. I worked for the airline for the next year and continued to have muscle pain. The stress was getting to me.  With 2 hour call outs and a 2 hour commute to the Philadelphia airport, I was in a constant state of fight or flight. I couldn’t manage to juggle the job and take care of myself in the way that I needed to.  Almost 9 months after my car accident I had a break down, yes, a break down and my chiropractor and family care provider temporarily removed me from work. Soon after that, I made the decision to leave the aviation industry behind. At the time I didn’t know what I was going to do.  My neck, shoulders and back hurt every day and I felt like a failure. I was left with high anxiety and depression. My mental state was so out of whack, that I didn’t even want to leave the house.

For six months I sat at home trying to figure out what to do. Through out the entire endeavor my health had declined. I gained weight, had stomach issues along with muscle pain and headaches.  My neck, shoulders and back hurt to the point where some days I didn’t want to leave my bed. Between my family care provider, chiropractor and therapist I went on medication so I could function in my day to day life. The medication began to help and with a push from my husband and a few close friends, I finally found a job.  I went to work in a low end position, for a local hospital and spent the next two years securing my employment.  Through networking I found a great position and continue to work in the health field.

I spent the last year working on getting myself back to being me and this meant a lot of yoga, meditation, exercise and clean eating. I have lost 10 lbs. since December of 2017 and my body is feeling stronger. I still struggle with anxiety and muscle pain, and continue to work on myself. Currently I am on the lowest dose of anxiety medication I can take and working my way to be medication free. When I decided to go back to teaching, I knew I had to tell my story and be honest about where I am in life. For me, being a yoga teacher comes with a certain degree of authenticity. So, in the spirit of tru2uyoga, I bare all and I will continue to do so.

This is my Journey!

TIMES THEY ARE CHANGING

When I was a child, I never imagined my life to be the way it is now.  As a matter of fact, if someone would have told me or showed me my life, I wouldn’t have believed them.  Don’t get me wrong.  It isn’t like it is the most horrible life one could have, it’s actually damn good!  I just wonder what happen to all my dreams.  If I really break it down, and look at each part of my life clearly, I can see how most of my present came to be.  I seem to forget that I spent a great deal of my life raising my son on my own.  I should be proud of how well I provided for him and how great he turned out.  And I am proud.  But at the same time there is this part of me that screams “what about me”.  I, as many do, sacrifice for the ones we love and we live up to our responsibilities, but in the end, feel a void.  Now my son is a grown man, and as I said, I am proud.  Now should be my time and honestly, I don’t know what to do.  After 20 years of being a mom, I don’t know how to be something else.  I feel as if my life has lost purpose in a way and I struggle to find the me.  I guess its time for new dreams.  I am getting there and much of my writing will be about that journey.

Stay tuned!!